in advance, id like to say im sorry because this entry is going to be a lot longer than anything ive posted and probably longer than anything i ever will post. i got into some pretty deep thought writing this. maybe cuz its 3am, who knows. but here it goes...
things change. nature changes, thats what nature is. ever since we got here, the total amount of entropy in the universe has only been able to increase. and chaos means change. lots and lots and lots of change.
people change too. or do they? im definitely not the same person i was a year ago, yet i am in essence no different than that naive little girl who loved the ocean and swing sets. parts of me have changed, parts of me have not. am i still that little girl? perhaps, but perhaps not.
but i suppose im getting ahead of myself here. if ive changed, how have i changed? i loved the ocean, and i still do, even if ive realized im deathly afraid of actually going into the water. i no long have time for swing sets, so maybe im more of an adult; more responsible and productive. i hated oatmeal, and i still do. i still love french fries and fried chicken and chicken nuggets, although i can no longer live with myself if i ate those every day.
but to be honest, im digressing. my true question is whether my fundamental personality has changed, and thats a lot more difficult to answer. likes and dislikes change all the time, but those dont really matter. who i am and what ive become is far more than what i like or dislike. and what would even make up my fundamental personality? well, im an introvert, and no matter how far ive tried to stray, i think ive always been. im easily distracted, amused, or wow-ed by surreal, vague, metaphysical-seeming things, and i always have been. and i still ponder upon the meaning of life and the reason for the existence of the universe more often than i should.
so in conclusion, i guess my fundamental personality hasnt changed in any significant way. i may have gained a little bit more control over parts of my personality, but my tendencies in doing things are still roughly the same. sure, my taste has evolved, and ive probably gained about half a million experience points thur far, but thats an integral part of life. so does this mean were all born into our personalities?
wait a minute... so that means i havent changed significantly and probably am not going to? i dont know whether thats uplifting or depressing. i guess my indecisive nature hasnt changed either. hmm.
- oh and on a side note... im going to try and post a picture with each entry i post, just so ya know. k im done.
